n.G daylife

strong wind blowing through the living room’s window,tv playing don’t know whatever show and me…holding the remote control keep on changing channel while facing the laptop. Today is just the 6th day i came back frm malaysia and i’ve started to feel boring and emo.sad case huh?!

well…some of you might think that i’ve overstated but…is true.nowadays,i wish that i can sleep longer. because if i stay awake i hv to think of what to do.so might as well i sleep longer.maybe jz stay awake for like 8hours. 2hours eating,2hours studying,1hours walking burning calories and the rest spend on entertainment. you guys might oso wan to know what kind of entertainment im having over here.online,dvds AND tv shows.

i can have this kind of life when im back in kb but i cant take it over here.i miss my family…i miss my frens…yea…i guess im homesick now.

strong wind cant blow away my loneliness,it will jz made me feel more cold.gosh…i really don’t know how to express my feeling in words.

3 classes in Nov

4 classes in Dec

pack in Jan i’m freakin free~ OMG…OMG…i’m going crazy over here… what should i do?!?!

Ques:find a job?!

Ans:they wont hired students.means they wont hired those who holding student pass.is ILLEGAL.

Ques:shopping and waste money?!

Ans:NO WAY.no more spending on shopping.

Ques:going and coming back to malaysia?!

Ans:YEA.am planning doing that.

Ques:do some "writing jobs" asked by special one?!

Ans:at least i get some "writing jobs" back from the special one too.GET IT?! i’m reffering to U if you are reading this.you know who you are rite??haha…

Ques:talking on phone?!

Ans:no more.the phone bill is scary!really scary……….

Ques:study?!

Ans:i’ve SRS and GLS at school so i’m forced to stay back n study for 7hours!every weekdays!! so stupid…eventhough i don’t have class.well….i’m not that hardworking type….so…you know what i means rite?!haha

Ques:vacation with mom?!

Ans:she suggested we go gold cost,sydney and melb.but i’m going next year so don’t feel like going.and my dad kinda not allow so not going.unleast she offer me countries like Jap or Spain then i will surely coax my dad to allow us to go!haha….

obviously,i got nothing to do this 2 months.going crazy~~~~i wana stay close with my family and frens……………..

my best fren in SG is back to accompany me.call her EMO….she is back to accompany me here in SG.sigh.

Before: I’m not the type to get my heart broken
            I’m not the type to get upset and cry
            Cause I never leave my heart open
            Never hurts me to say goodbye
            Relationships don’t get deep to me
            Never got the whole in love thing
            And someone can say they love me truely
               But at the time it didn’t mean a thing

After:    My mind is gone, i’m spinning round
           And deep inside, my tears i’ll drown
            I’m losing grip, what’s happening
            I stray from love, this is how I feel

            This time was different
            Felt like, I was just a victim
           And it cut me like a knife
            When you walked out of my life
            Now i’m, in this condition
            And i’ve, got all the symptoms
            Of a girl with a broken heart
           But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

            Did it happen when we first kissed
            Cause it’s hurting me to let it go
            Maybe cause we spent so much time
            And I know that it’s no more
            I shoulda never let you hold me baby
            Maybe why i’m sad to see us apart
            I didn’t give to you on purpose
           Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

            My mind is gone, i’m spinning round
            And deep inside, my tears i’ll drown
            I’m losing grip, what’s happening
            I stray from love, this is how I feel

            This time was different
            Felt like, I was just a victim
            And it cut me like a knife
            When you walked out of my life
            Now i’m, in this condition
            And i’ve, got all the symptoms
            Of a girl with a broken heart
          But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

          How did I get here with you, i’ll never know
          I never meant to let it get so, personal
          After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
          I’m broken hearted, I can’t let you know
          And I won’t let it show
          You won’t see me cry

          This time was different
          Felt like, I was just a victim
          And it cut me like a knife
          When you walked out of my life
          Now i’m, in this condition
          And i’ve, got all the symptoms
          Of a girl with a broken heart
          But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

          This time was different
          Felt like, I was just a victim
         And it cut me like a knife
         When you walked out of my life
         Now i’m, in this condition
         And i’ve, got all the symptoms
         Of a girl with a broken heart
         But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

         All my life…

Rihanna - Cry

this song is haunting me . . .

guess what??? i left my jacket at sch 3days ago!!! AND i didt realise about it!!! until jz now when i was packing then i jz realise i left it at sch after my last paper!!!!!

omg~im so retarded……..is adidas k!!! i bought it with SG198!!! omg omg….and i love it soooooo much!!!im going back sch tomoro!don’t care!!!!!!!!! im screaming inside myself!!!!!! sakit hati!!!!!!!! *sob* sob*….

i want my adidas jacket back!!!!!!!!!!! hopefully they still keep it for me…but i know the chances is small…..really sad now…really…….how can i being so careless….sad…im jz being so angie ng!!

which starbucks is the best?

vivocity - the chicken brocoli quiche is…yucks…tasteless…its suppose to taste the same but~ IS DIFFERENT…maybe because they used different way to heat up the quiche so its make it not crispy anymore.then the halzenut hot chocolate taste like more like hot chocolate instead of halzenut hot chocolate.BUT the best thing i like is….that person put alot of whipped cream on top of the halzenut hot chocolate!and I LOVE CREAM….so…3 stars…

marina square - maybe is a new branches so…for me i think is the worst. because they serve my halzenut hot chocolate after i finished half of my chicken puff! AND they did the wrong one….thats the worst….they gave me hot chocolate with no cream on top. so…they have to redo it…and eventually…its took them 20min to serve a drink…sigh…1 stars.

city hall(raffles place) - the most starbucks that i’ve visited.most of their workers can recognise me.when i was addicted to starbucks, i went there almost every morning.(and then broke…) i can say that this is my fav branches and they are the best. they serve the food and drink in like 5min…more or least. and their chicken brocoli quiche taste the best…and halzenut hot chocolate too!! 5 stars…

suntec city - everytime i went there,it was peak period…alot of ppl! i remember the 1st or the 2nd time i went there, they served me "cold" halzenut "hot" chocolate~they forgot to put the "steam" thing to make it hot i guess…so i jz left it there instead of go n complain or wat…coz there was hell lot of ppl.and i told myself that im not coming back.BUT still i went back.you know why?! because………….there’s a hot guy working over there!!haha…yea~i went back to "look" for the hot guy…so when the last time i went there…everything is great,their halzenut hot chocolate n eggs pettie…taste great…and of course…he was there…haha…3 stars

orchard - been there once.what i can say alot of ppl….have to wait quite some time…but their hot chocolate is okie lu…taste like the starbucks hot chocolate should have taste like…haha… *doint… what am i talking abt?? anyway…i don’t like to wait….so 2 stars…

there’s still a few starbucks i’ve been to along the orchard road…in wisma and…near the ngee ann city??no idea…as long as i can get my halzenut hot chocolate will do…

i don’t know why im blogging this kind of stuff….ranking the best starbucks in singapore?! no idea…BUT as you all can see~i did spent alot on starbucks…….and thanks starbucks for contribute the FATS on my body…sigh…

why im writing all this?! because im going back kelantan and no more starbucks??gosh….i think im gonna craving for starbucks~~~ eeerrgghh…..ketagih~haha….like those drug addicts….

P/S: ruth…you said you gonna get me a Grande halzenut hot chocolate when i get back there.how?! deliver to my house??? i’ll be waiting~~~ days and nites~~~

i need to get back on my own feet. make it possible. eventhough not enough time. but never too late. though is abit too late. aargghh….whatever….im talking abt…….NOTHING….

i need a hazelnut hot chocolate wit cream (Grande) now~

*sob* i wan rest.hugging my pillow n xing fu but CANNOT sleep.

heck care.will sleep after playing msn game.

nite .i don’t wan nightmare tonite.

i need extra time.i need rest.i need to shop.i need to concentrate.i need to stop sleeping.i need stop crap.i need to stop blogging now!

i hate exam.

so stress up for what? in the end, you might not get what you want. yea.i mean i might fail my paper.

im still awake . . .with this song ：

勇气-张震岳 (click for the song)

需要一点勇气
来对你说对不起
他一直在你的心中
我还爱上你
知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多
没有方向看不清楚在徘徊
我知道我一定
走不开
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜 
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
你身边说爱你

需要一点勇气
来面对现在的心情
也许时间依旧
很快就忘记
知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多
没有方向看不清楚在徘徊
我知道我一定
走不开
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边
你的身边说爱你

listening to this song while the wind is blowing on my face.我需要勇气 for everythings。。。加油。。。

i regreted what i’ve done but the changes that i’ve made….god knows.for me…i want to keep it all,will never wash it away no matter how.though,we are now not keeping the same things,i wish we still own the same things.

i thought thing getting better.but somehow when things changed, it’s killing you every single minute.

hating myself.for being too dependent and THAT feeling inside me.is hurting me but i promise to stay strong be the girl that i used to be.stand by my own feet n be ANGIE.one day i might breakdown and cry silently.but still i will stand by my own feet till the end…

although is killing me,but still im willing to go against it.but will it work? time will prove it to me.but how long can i stand for the pain? i will put myself into a numb mode.so that i can stay till the end.

let’s jz think it the other way,is karma…i deserve for it.i feel better now.gosh…how badly i need a blue sky or a beautiful stars in the sky.and lying there watching them wit a peaceful heart.i don’t want to feel my heart beat that remind me of my pain.bring me to somewhere wit beautiful sky.

i hope that my sadness and emo-ness wont spread to others.

isnt it no one reading my blog or viewing my profile besides the two loving couple who left comments on two of my previous blog and my profile is full wit their comments too!!! u TWO….yea…im talking abt u TWO…….don’t so loving in front of me can not??? i jealous….itch….

anyone out there pls drop your comments for me!!don’t let theirs comments flood my blog n profile~~~~~

my blog n profile’s comment are drowning~~drowning…………….